So the past week I’ve noticed in me anxiety, or more appropriately fear. A fear over the future, over what’s next and how will I manage everything. It’s cost me some sleep, it’s prevented some conversations from getting much deeper and I will freely admit that it likely hasn’t added a single minute to my life. In fact, it’s robbed me of some. A lot of *me* and *I* in all this…
- We admitted we were powerless that our lives had become unmanageable.
- Came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
- Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God.
Man did I need that reminder. When things are good, I stray and put more stock in myself than I ought to despite how tightly I cling to Romans 12. I suppose it’s my condition, or more broadly if I’m not to be a martyr here, that it’s the human condition to forget to surrender and turn myself over to God’s will in all times, not just when it seems appropriate. I needed the opportunity, the reminder that I am someone that will take back control, not in an overt power-grab, but in subtle ways and most recently it’s presented itself as fear. So I step up and begin the process of what will *I* do, instead of surrendering myself to God’s will and trusting that He knows far better than I do.
I was reminded that early in my recovery, and early in the discovery of my faith and in my walk with Jesus I turned to ‘the Lord’s Prayer’ from the Beatitudes. For one, not surprisingly I didn’t know how to pray, what to pray for and how to get a conversation with God going. In moments when I felt myself getting overwhelmed, times when I felt like I had no purpose or times when I wouldn’t have full faculty of my eyes I would recite the Lord’s Prayer. Recently, I’ve found myself immersed in it multiple times daily as I work to again put my full faith and trust in God.
Matthew 6: 9-13 (NIV)
“Our Father in heaven,
hallowed be your name,
your kingdom come,
your will be done,
on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our debts,
as we also have forgiven our debtors.
And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil.”
If you haven’t prayed the Lord’s Prayer recently or read the notes in a study Bible recently I encourage you to. It’s 10 lines long and has everything we need except an acknowledgement of our own personal sin but includes praise for God, a prayer for God’s work in the world and a prayer for our daily needs. This prayer has been there for me in many different seasons of life from the time it was taught to me by my Nana Midge when I was about 10. It has been words for me when I had none, and has brought me peace when I thought that was impossible. What a gift that is!
I was laying on the floor of our bathroom, trying to console our dog in the middle of a thunderstorm over the weekend and out of instinct I began saying the Lord’s Prayer. My dog will never be able to turn her anxiety, fear, joy or life over to God. She’ll never find comfort in the middle of a raging storm from a God that loves her. What a gift God’s peace is to each of us. No sorry, what an incredible gift God ‘s peace is for each of us! If only we can trust, and turn our worldly selves over to His perfect plan for us. We all have the ability to get off the bathroom floor, turn over our fears to a loving Father which sounds a lot better than lying in a heap wondering when the storm will end.
Grace, peace and love