I don’t think it’s a surprise to any of you who know me, or who have read my messages to say that I’ve been in a place of wondering. A place of pain. A place of some drifting and asking the questions I grew up believing were too big to ask of God. Why? When will my burden be lifted? Have you forgotten me? No question is too big for God, no joy, anger, sadness or question is bigger than God, and like any parent He can handle anything we throw at Him.
I woke up with a passage from Lamentations front and center for me. It was the carefully plucked passages from Lamentations 3: 22-24. I felt that as being absolutely true for me, but I wanted more context so read the third chapter and wow!
What my faith and what being in community shows me and reminds me of is that I’m not alone. What the Bible showed me today is that my struggles continue to be no different than those of anyone, and that includes Jeremiah. It’s gut-wrenching to read through the chapter, but it also reminds me of my own challenges and struggles. My own inner dialogue, crying out to God for stretches of time but ending in a place like today (and many of other days like today) where I will sing His praises because great is His faithfulness. I would love to lay claim to having written Lamentations because it sounds like my own story laid out far more eloquently. It speaks to me on so many levels, like many of the Psalms do, and wonder if it resonates with any of you?
Lam 3: 19-24
19 I remember my affliction and my wandering,
the bitterness and the gall.
20 I well remember them,
and my soul is downcast within me.
21 Yet this I call to mind
and therefore I have hope:
22 Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
23 They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
24 I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion;
therefore I will wait for him.”
My hope is in Him. He may not answer the way I want, or the way I pray but I’m thankful for that! This isn’t meant to be an imputing of myself, but I readily acknowledge that if I’m left to my own devices I would probably mess it all up. If I elevate myself to god status, I’m taking Him out of the equation trusting only in myself. I have a history of that, and therefore put my trust in Him and can only pray that you all feel support, love and a sense of peace from our God. The God that bore the sins of all of us that we can have life, and have it to the full!